adoseofrevolution asked: I just spent the last 20 mins replaying Scientist and crying....O.o Thanksalot! haha
I’m sorry. It’s such an emotionally powerful song. I’ll try to post something a little less emotionally draining today.
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January 15, 2012
January 12, 2012
I hate Hollywood movies and sitcom TV shows
They present this idea of reality that just doesn’t exist. It’s not real. It’s more fake than the sets of these films and shows. The reality they present is hollow and vapid and shallow.
They wrap deep emotions in façades that remove all complexity and beauty from real world experiences that people actually experience and, instead, replace it with something that is unachievable, something that is unrealistic.
Real life isn’t the movies. Real life isn’t a TV show. Real life doesn’t magically work out at the end.
In real life you get burned. In real life you get punched in the gut. In real life you get kicked in the ribs when you’re down, again and again.
That’s the world we’re in. That’s what you should expect from you future. There’s no happy ending. You’re miserable and then you die.
If you’re lucky you have a few moments of happiness thrown in the middle.
The movies teach you to never give up, to never lose hope. They teach you that things work out in the end if you persevere.
Fuck that.
I don’t believe that shit any more. I don’t believe that things will magically work out for me if I keep at it.
I give up.
I don’t really hate the movies and sitcoms. I hate myself. I hate myself for buying in to their bullshit dream. I hate myself for being naive and stupid and immature. Now I’ve got to live with that. Now I have to figure out how to fix that.
October 20, 2011
People are shit
Should Gaddafi have been killed? He was a horrible person but it’s not my place to judge him. A court would have been far better but that’s moot now. He’s gone.
Should people desecrate his body? No!
I understand emotions run high but you’ve reached the point you wanted to reach. Rebuild your country. Try to fix things. Mutilating a body isn’t going to fix the situation you’re in.
I’m happy that the Libyans can start rebuilding now. Alhamdulilah. May Allah make the path of that wounded nation easy.
August 31, 2011
lost-andnotyetfound-deactivated asked: your posts/pictures of Mecca make me really miss it lol. love the blog, its so interesting and fun to read. would appreciate it if you followed back, thank you :))
I’m glad that my posts and pictures about Mecca evoke such strong emotions in you. I’m touched that you’ve said such nice things about my blog. It really means a lot.
I’ll have a look through your blog.
July 27, 2011
I’m in Doha
I remember making a post just like this in October. I remember writing about my expectations of the year ahead and the feelings I was experiencing. I think it all feels different this time around. I think everything is slightly blunted. I don’t feel things like I did before. There isn’t the rush of excitement and nerves and everything. My biggest worry isn’t whether I’ll enjoy this year or not but whether I’ll be able to get a nice room at the hotel and whether I’ll be able to wake up for Fajr.
July 26, 2011
I’m flying back to Saudi tomorrow…
I can’t believe my month here is already over. I can’t believe how quickly it’s all gone. I can’t believe I’m going back to Saudi Arabia tomorrow.
I’ve been feeling so many conflicting emotions about my stay here. A part of me doesn’t want to go back at all but another part of me is ready to go. I know I wrote about it a couple of days ago how I was conflicted so I won’t go through all that again.
What I do what to write about is some of the things I’m looking forward to when I get back to Saudi. I think it’ll help me settle in as quick as possible to think positive though…
July 5, 2011
18. Are you holding onto something you need to let go of?
When a person holds on to something they should let go of I understand that to mean they feel something that they shouldn’t, that detrimental thoughts and actions seep through everything they do. These can originate from people, from regrets, from personal feelings towards oneself. It’s amazing how many things we hold on to that we shouldn’t. I’m guilty of this too.
June 23, 2011
6. If happiness was the national currency, what kind of work would make you rich?
I don’t know if I’m the best person in the world to be writing about happiness right now but I’ll give it a shot. Sorry if this answer isn’t up to scratch…
The ‘you’ in this question can refer to a specific ‘you’, i.e. me or it can refer to a general ‘you’ i.e. the population at large. I think I’ll answer the question from both perspectives because I feel they’re very different answers.
April 24, 2011
Memories and pictures
I went through a phase a few years ago where I took pictures of everything and everyone. Over the course of 18 months to two years I took around 10,000 pictures of my life, the people I knew, and small things that caught my attention. I always carried a camera with me. I haven’t been through those pictures in a long time but I think I’ll wade through them at some point this summer - most of them are on DVDs I burned and are at home. Thinking about pictures has got me thinking about the memories we have and how they all tie together.
July 17, 2010
My greatest love…
Love comes in so many forms. You can love people, things, situations, and feelings amongst so many other things. The human brain releases chemicals that make you feel good about things when you’re around them and makes you feel bad when you’re away from them. Love is, almost, like an addiction. You crave that raw emotion that hits you and its blend of euphoria. When thing don’t work out the despair you feel is catastrophic.
April 9, 2010
Time moves so fast!
It’s not long to go now before the first stage of my goodbye to Blighty starts. In just over a week I’ll be on a plane to Prague about to start a TEFL course. This moment has been a long time coming. With there being so little time left there are so many conflicting emotions I’m feeling.
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