dansmesbras asked: I'm almost crying for joy, I am so so so happy and proud of you! :)
Thank you so much for your wonderful message, Fran. I swear, I really feel like I’ve turned a corner these last few days. The future is starting to make so much more sense that it has in weeks and months.
In sha Allah, all that will happen will be for the best. I’m sure I’ll keep writing about it so you can stay on top of it all :)
adoseofrevolution asked: I just spent the last 20 mins replaying Scientist and crying....O.o Thanksalot! haha
I’m sorry. It’s such an emotionally powerful song. I’ll try to post something a little less emotionally draining today.
Both countries are in a state of utter chaos right now and it looks like it’s going to get so much worse before it gets better.
I can’t help but think about it constantly and think about all the people in those places and the terrible situation they’re in.
I’ve been praying so hard that Allah brings safety and peace to the people there.
It’s horrible. I watch the news and I just want to cry.
But I feel like crying right now.
So much has gone wrong this morning. Things are crazy impossible right now and I’m getting hit from every side.
I don’t know how what to do.
I’m going to pray and ask Allah for help through all this.
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I remember making a post just like this in October. I remember writing about my expectations of the year ahead and the feelings I was experiencing. I think it all feels different this time around. I think everything is slightly blunted. I don’t feel things like I did before. There isn’t the rush of excitement and nerves and everything. My biggest worry isn’t whether I’ll enjoy this year or not but whether I’ll be able to get a nice room at the hotel and whether I’ll be able to wake up for Fajr.
If there’s one thing about this trip that has been really great is my relationship with my family. I’ve said before that there have been a few things that haven’t quite matched up to my expectations like praying at the mosque or seeing my friends but the situation at home has been, mostly, great.
Before I start, I’m not talking about PMSing or any of that kind of stuff!
I’ve been a little bit all over the place these last few weeks and months. I think it’s because I’m on the precipice of this next step of my life and it’s making me think about everything that is happening and has happened recently. A few times I’ve gotten a whole lot more angry than I should have and at other points I’ve been pushed in other directions.
